I have finally come to a conclusion……………….
That I am an EMOTIONAL person. Because of my emotions I have caused problems in the past and in my future. I believe people would not understand that I am a “little” bi-polar and I am learning how to control my emotions. The most SUBTLE things can get to me and that person will not even know that it has affected me -not saying that anyone would not caused hurt towards me, But I cause a lot of confusions by letting my emotions get the best of me and IT DRIVES ME CRAZY!!! I know the people that I am associated with (family, friends (I use that world lightly) and co-workers: will not understand why I behave the way I do and how my actions push them away…. However, certain things that I do, does not always have to be my bi-polar… But, I know the symptoms of having bi-polar episodes and I believe I have them everyday.. I just know how to control it w/o taking medication.
I do not believe that my illness is as strong and present as it use to be and I give God the glory because of it and my husband who endured the pain with me and never gave up on me- even when he did not understand.
I really want to help a lot of people with this illness-what I have been through-and all that info will be in my book that I am writing. The rough draft is finish but I still have a long way to go… I should be done by July…With the book being ready, I think!!! Lets see #excited