- Ok, my depression did not not just start today or yesterday! It started about 2 weeks ago, while at work. But for the last week I have been down, very down and I have no control over it! When I wake up in the morning ( just like today) I am scared and down. Since my job is paying for me to see a counselor- I wonder what they are going to do for me? I went the first time to a counselor and I thought it went great because she had the same thing I had- bi polar but I felt like she was talking more about her problems then mines and I felt rush so I wonder how this guy is going to do! Man, so that I can work and keep the job I have – all I want is meds! All I want to do is get better and people keep giving me the run around. I remember when I was in Georgia and they had a free clinic where you talked to a psychiatrist and they had group meetings after that you got your medication, if you need it! And it was like $5.00. But I’ve been looking up for that same type of treatment. And it seems like “Stupid Jacksonville” has NOTHING! And on that note- it seems that my mother (rih) was the only one who believed and understood what I was going through…. I am a Christian with a disorder and I need help. Also why people think mental illness is not real and if you take medication, it is a placebo to make you think it is working? I have people in my family that think like that! And it irks my nerves! One thing I will say, be careful who you tell your business….. Mental illness is as real as cancer!