Mixed Emotions

As I woke up this morning………Anger,hatred, wanting to cry and just run away and be to myself filled me. No one understands why I feel the way I feel. I barely understand it! I guess I better setup a psychiatrist appointment and get on my meds because I am not doing too well. I am not myself…. I am not who Erica should be. I am starting to feel the reason of why” maybe” God has not open up any doors for me because of my mental illness and me not taking my pills to help this chemical imbalance. Why did I have to have this disease? Until then I am just going to pray……and ask God to help me with this until I get better!