As I was watching Family Guy, most episodes show Stewie using a time machine.And as I was watching the 1st season of Family Guy…………………
For the first time tonight I was thinking about how I would go back to my past self and stop myself from using credit cards/ stay strong with the mental abuse and reasons of why I should get a beaten/I would tell my past Erica to put her nervousness aside and say yes to my mother with auditioning for La villa Art Performing School/ I would not worry about being married or going out with any boy until it was the right time too- meaning I would not be in such a rush to be in a serious relationship and I would stay to myself to just concentrate on God and my singing career.
I would tell my future self to not get any student loans and think very carefully when making decisions. I would actually be very strong and conscientious about having friends as well. I mean I would be talking to my past self about everything that will happen in the future if she does not make the right choices…. Better choices…
And then I would go to my mother and talk to her and cry my heart out because I know that when I go back to my future she would of been passing away, And I would prepare my past self for my mother passing away in 2009. Maybe my past self can prevent my mother from pasting away in 2009 or maybe that is the yr that God wanted my mother home with Him. Who knows? But sadly, all of this is just wishful thinking.
Now, I am here today 10/31/2015 Saturday, trying to figure out if my life can and will get better and when can I get out of the situation that I am in. I want to feel bad and be upset and depressed but something in me is causing me to just keep going forward and do me. I believe that is God and His spirit letting me know that I am going to be alright and things are going to get better but it is up to me.
THIS PARAGRAPH I WANT TO SHARE WITH YOU,THIS JUST CAME TO MY SPIRIT:
I am not saying that there is no one out there that has a worst life then me but I am carrying a cross and I think I am doing good and we all have our crosses to bear. My situation may be little to you and your situation may be worse then mines but remember I am still carrying my cross and sometimes my burdens seem heavy but because of God I always make it through.
Please, anyone who reads this. Please don’t compare your life to others saying, “You think you are going through something” or “You think you went through something”. Do not down what some one is going through… Like stated above, we all have our crosses to bear. Instead help that person get through what they are going through. Don’t put there burdens on the shelf because your burdens are bigger than theirs.