I just notice that I was afraid to live life. I was afraid to be happy and joyful because of the circumstances I am in. I ask myself why should I be happy and joyful when I am in this predicament…
I just notice that I was afraid to live life. I was afraid to be happy and joyful because of the circumstances I am in. I ask myself why should I be happy and joyful when I am in this predicament? -I am scared to be happy because my life is not they way I want it to be.
After all the questions and doubts, Today ( August 25, 2016 Thursday) I finally decided to live life with purpose and ignore the fear and negativity that I allowed
satan to put in my mind.
satan is here to kill steal and destroy-don’t allow him to.
It didn’t work when I said, “If you can’t do anything about it why worry”? What worked was when I said,” I AM GOING TO Live MY LIFE” —AND WHAT MADE A DIFFERENCE IS: I believe I actually put it in God’s hands. I am going to live my life and I am going to do what I need to do to get where I need to be. Because If I sit back and do nothing and I just worry about what is not happening, I am going to waste my life away and I will not get anywhere. As I said above:
satan is here to kill steal and destroy and I am not going to give that minion any type of satisfaction anymore.
I am learning to pray through the storm and just give it to God because what I can’t control He can fix and what I can control, I can control. I feel good since I am just going to let whatever negativity and circumstance in my life go and give it to Him.
This step has took some process, it did not happen overnight. I am just happy I recognized that my joy is more important to my health. And I am going to live it God’s way. His way is better then my ways. What I want for myself is cool but God has better for me, which is beyond my expectations.
I need to VENT!!!
I have been sitting back and thinking about how bad I screwed up my life.I feel like I can’t get out of this hole that I previously talked about. I sit here in my car thinking about: Can I do better, can I fix my credit, can I get a home of my own, can I have the singing career that I want, and can I have a SUCCESSFUL LIFE?!!! All of this hangs above my head. It just sits there and lingers, just a question mark on the top of my head. I am lost and can’t breath………………………………………..
This is what I see: I am in my own world and I am the only one there and my world is just circling around me, I don’t even have an open path for me to just start walking yet. Can you see the picture that I am trying to portray to you?
I am not being negative but I have a lot on my chest and I need to breath. God please carry me. I can’t do this on my own. Too much to do in so little time.
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