Just tonight, I notice that I am afraid to LOVE. That is why I distance and act weird with people that I love or have love for. Loving from a distance helps me to deal with the people in my life. I wish I could love without fear but I don’t think that will ever happen. I mean, the only thing that can help me with learning how to love people is spending time with God (being in His word and maybe even fasting).
I even try to not get too close to my husband because I don’t want to hurt him or vice versa. Well, we now know that the year of 2017: Erica, has to work on learning to love. What is so funny is I met a pastor that told me that as believers of God we have to love (whether through pain, hurt.happiness or sadness) Because that is what Jesus did. I understand that, but I am not Jesus. However, I will do the best I can to love others regardless of what they do to me ( You never know what other’s are going through). I am not perfect and I know I can hurt people too. That is why I try to stay to myself. I don’t know…………….
I guess I need to find out what Love really is?