Listen 2 My Heart

Starting with this video….It shows that this YT channel is not all about singing. It is about my heart, my life! I try to portray that in all my videos: The real, and the genuine of me ( My Heart). My brother asked me one time, ” If I just want a singing career or if I want to make an impact on the world?” I want both but what really matters to me out of the two is making an impact on others (The World). This video is to reach out to the broken and more. Make an impact! Try to make a difference!

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We shall overcome: Be the change you wish to see in the world!

I did a cover of me singing: We Shall Overcome!!! That song came to my heart because of all of the hate, deaths, murders, bullying, suicides, racism ( which our people fought and died  to end that but to no avail we still see it today).

The children are dying younger and younger….And the list goes on. And you try to figure out why Colin Kaepernick did not salute the flag?  Because of what it stands for in this day in age. And I don’t blame him and I respect him for what he believes. Until we see change in the negativity and the crap that is happening in this world….Things will continue to get worse. And the crazy thing about it all is: We as people can stop the madness and violence. We have a choice and we have a voice…. We just choose to let satan take control and use us as an experiment. And the more we continue to fight fire with fire there will never be changed.

 

And Until we start making change and taking a stand like Colin Kaepernick did….This world will continue to go to hell in a hand basket

Agree or Disagree: It’s Your Opinion against mines!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

New Cover: Holy Ground by Passion

Here is my new cover.

I really love this song. I sung it at my church a couple of weeks ago and it just touches the depth of my soul. I feel like when you sing the bridge: That there are miracles working in the atmosphere that we can not see. If you believe.

Chains Fall/ Fear Bow/ Here Now-Jesus  You Change Everything
Lives Healed/ Hope Found/ Here Now- Jesus  You Change Everything

 

Let Your Heart Beat Again!!!!

I know I have not posted in a while but I am back!  I did a new video last week and I wanted to share it with you on Word Press. I hope you like it.  Don’t forget to share, like, and comment on my video. And last but not least: Subscribe to my channel for more upcoming covers of me singing

 

Jesus We Love You Cover Song

Here is my new cover of Jesus we love You by Paul McClure. This song means a lot to me, especially with what I was experiencing at the time when I sung this song.
#Listen2MyHeart
PS. I am sorry it was not posted Monday. I was so tired. But here it is!!!

#Listen2MyHeart

 

God…… “Make My Brokenness,Beautiful!”

I have this same song on my channel. But the reason that this song was sung again was because God kept putting this verse on my heart: ” Will Your Grace Run Out” And the way I was feeling, I had to sing this song. Because now, there is a different meaning to me of what this song means at this time. Will you allow God to show you how beautiful you are in the midst of your pain and sorrow? This was my worship to God, and I knew He heard His child crying out.

 

Erica Simpson’s New Singing Video

I made a new cover song. The song that I am singing is called: Called Me Higher By All My Sons & Daughers. Go Check it out and don’t forget to subscribe to my channel if you like what you hear. Also, like, and comment as well. Any critiques will help a lot.

Here’s the video.

 

Unhealthy Singer 14: Perservere

Persevere

Something happened to me at church…….

Yesterday and even on Saturday I was not prepared to sing at Church ( May 7, 2017, Sunday). I did not want to sing and I felt so down and irritated. So I told my pastor that I was not spiritually ready to sing and I do not know if I am just depressed or is it my “diagnoses” of being bi-polar? As I said a while back in one of my old post: I do not claim to be bi-polar at all.  I really feel that what I went through at 18 years old was something that any normal person would go through. I just was in a lot of pain and did not know how to control my emotions. ( I will talk about that in a later post of how that all began).

But back to what I was saying, So after I explained all that to him, he then tells me NO! In such a calming way, lol. He explains to me why I should get on that stage and fight through the problem I am dealing with, and that what we fight are spiritual battles- ( Ephesians 6 )  In Ephesians chapter 6  it explains how we are fighting what we can’t see. And my pastor basically said, “You will defeat the devil by going on stage and worshiping God through worship and song”. And in my spirit, I accepted and understood what he was saying. And I did it! I persevered!

After I sung, I sat down and felt like a warrior. I knew right then that I had won my battle. It felt good. I felt relief.  That put a whole new perspective on my life. To just push through, Persevere ( Galatians 5 talks about the fruits of the spirit) and persevering is one of the fruits. My pastor helped me to understand what it really feels like to fight the battle, and know that you made it through. I know that I have fought many battles because I am still alive today.

But this battle was different for me. It had something to do with my singing. I keep saying and I will always say it, “How can you have a gift and not feel like using it, especially when it is something God has given you”? I guess that is where satan comes in and tries to attack every avenue of your life when he knows that God has something awesome for you and that God gave you such an awesome talent and gift that satan does not want the world to hear or see!

So I will continue to persevere. Starting today.

Remember this : There will always be that one person that can impact your life, to change something about you so that you can move on to the next chapter of your life.

What is one of your fruits that you need to work on? I mean, we all (at some degree) need to work on all of the fruits of the Holy Spirit. But what is one that you have a hard time dealing with?

Mines is self-control and perseverance.

Not only have my pastor impact me, but I have had a lot of people and loves one in my life teach me a thing or two and  made me take a second to rethink everything in my life. One of them is my husband and brother.

And to end this post. Here is a song that I know God wanted to keep dear to my heart. Maybe it will opened up your heart to Him

Galatians 5: Fruits of The Spirit
Ephesians 6: Battles

 

Unhealthy Singer 13: Healing

 

 

The Healing Process
Humbleness came into my spirit. My definition of humbleness is very different from God’s definition of humbleness. 

 

 

Since my last post……..

I went to the library after work. I took a private room so that I could think and talk to God. I got some paper from the Library’s copy machine, ( I do not think I should have done that, since you have to pay for the paper when you print or make copies, lol) I guess I’m a thief! But anywho, I then went back to my room and I sat down and began to think. I made 4 categories: One was for God, the other Singing Career, the other Weight loss, the other was finance and last but not least My Vocals.

I started making bullets for each category on what I need to do for each one. When I was done, I said to God that I want to be “persistent, consistent, I want to persevere and I want self-control”: I put that in the God category. I then looked at the categories and I saw how the other 4 categories surrounded my God Category. I then said with amazement, “It all begins with You! Everything that I want and desire and need begins with YOU!”

I’ve been running, losing faith and belief, and questioning Him and His existence for so long; I go around in circles to the point I am in a big deep round hole and when I’m tired of doing things on my own and my way while I am in that deep hole, I somehow find myself looking up to Him and going right back to Him to start over. That’s kind of like relationships, huh? lol.

The whole point of what I am saying is this is a healing process and for me, it starts with God. I have tried to do it my way and run away from Him. But I am like a child on a leash-He will let me go as far as that leash will take me, but He will always pull me back when I go off too far.

In conclusion: I am in a healing process….. If I start with God and do things the right way, MY LIFE WILL BECOME EASIER. I will still have bumps and bruises and might even add on more but if I stick with Him I will be just fine. It starts with Him, It starts with HIM.

Unhealthy Singer 12: This is a Journey

 

Same Old Street Change Blvd
This fits perfectly for my journey. This about sums it up!

 

As I started off with this series of an UNHEALTHY SINGER. It was about weight loss now it is turned into more of me being unhappy, depressed, not wanting to sing anymore, wanting my father’s love…….And the list could go on.  I need to be content but I am not content. I know some will tell me to do something about it, but when you are where I am at then you will understand my story. I am not trying to make any excuses- I am just trying to understand who I am and what direction I am going. For example:

My Weight:
I feel like I fail every day because one moment I am doing good and the next I am not. I want to stay consistent but it seems like I never succeed. I will honestly say, that I do feel like my weight has dropped a little ( maybe inch wise) But I need to check the SCALE~

My Singing:
I ask myself this question: How bad do I really want it? Do I really care about my singing? Can I really have a singing career? Am I unique? I do know that I want to share my gift with the world to make an impact on other’s lives and I do know that I do not want to waste my talent at some “job”.

Finance:
That word above plays such part in me being depressed sometimes. I am learning to do better with my money but I sometimes do not succeed with staying consistent with doing better with my money……. I mean I am just TERRIBLE, lol! And I am not making that much at my job. But next month things should change a bit, but guys! I am really trying. And trying is just not enough for me.

Father’s Love
When it comes to a Father’s LOVE, it is very important to me. I am talking about the man who raised me in his on way, the best he knew how to raise me. I want his love so bad to point it hurts. I use to put: wanting my father’s love in the back of my mind, to prove that I was strong enough and did not need his love, a Father’s love but I do. My dad’s love would have prevented a lot of things in my life that went wrong if he would have given me and showed me his love.

I want to say what I say and DO IT. NO Excuses. I want to stay committed to everything and put my mind to it. I want to be grateful even when I do not have that much money on me. And even when I want to run away from God or I choose not to talk to Him and do it my way….. I know that He will be the one to fix Ol’ Erica. But I have to take some steps, you know?

I need some guidance…… I am going to ask God for guidance and then I am going searching.

PS. Every time I write my post, I sometimes get my answers. writing these post are therapeutic for me and they help me think. This is not just about my weight anymore, but about everything in my life that I need to conquer.

I guess this is what you call a Journey! This is my Goliath!

Philippians 4:13