Going to church

Church was awesome! Felt the spirit! I can’t wait until next week. Y’all enjoy your week. God Bless!

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BETTER!!!

I used to be so broken,lost,empty.
A heart with no beat.
A singer with no song to sing 
So I know the feeling
The silence is deafening
But in your pain lies a blessing
A sweeter song of victory
So keep walking ,walking,walking
Though it seems so far.
No matter who you are
See, there is one thing that I know
Chorus: Life it can leave ,You so bitter bitter,bitter, bitter
But you must believe
That it gets better,better,better, better

The title and lyrics speaks for itself. The lady that sings this song name is Jessica Reedy. Her lyrics are so powerful and deep. They speak to me every time I listen to her sing this song.  This song defines what I went through and how I almost gave up, but with God and the people that He put in my life to pray for my pain, cries, wanting to give up, and having suicidal thoughts-I finally had a break through (even though it might have took 10 years)-17yr old-27yr old.

In this song  the chorus  explains life so well. That when you go through a lot in life, your past can determine your future .. And sometimes pain can make your life so miserable,but you have to really have your life drench with God in order to deal with life problems…I can tell you that there were times in my life were my life left me so bitter- I was going down the wrong path, but God held onto my hand even when I made the same mistake over and over again, until I had to learn- so that God  was able to lead me to my destiny and I believe in 2015 my destiny is coming very soon 🙂

A singer with no song to sing-(this verse describes me so well,  I am singer and just as this verse states, that is how my life felt at one point – A life with no reason to live) IF YOU WANT TO SEE MY YOUTUBE VIDEOS JUST GO TO MY ABOUT PAGE AND LIKE AND SUBSCRIBE to my WordPress and Youtube Channel

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But God

I am beginning to pray more and my faith is starting to become stronger in Christ, the more I pray.  Right now financially there are somethings coming at me so hard, but because of God I am able to not worry and find a way to make my financial situation better.  One thing I do hate, is working at a job that does not pay us enough (as far as wages go). My husband has to work doubles to make ends me-but the sad part is…..It still does not help financially, Barely… But because of God…. Somewhere, supernaturally…We make ends meet, and it is not because of me but because of God.  I have so much peace even though I might be struggling… And it is because of God….The things I went through last year prepared me for 2015. I am just so joyful!!! I am going to have an awesome year…. I just feel it and know it. I even knew I was going to have a great year,  before the New Years came.  I am happy that the presence of God is with me…. I need more of Him….There are some things, I am going to have to break free from, to received more of Him.

The real REHEARSAL of WORSHIP

A place were God Dwells
              A place were God Dwells

I went through some difficult times of submission with new people coming to the church and joining the praise team. I have to say that the way that I acted towards the worship leader was very disrespectful!!!! so, for a while I was off the praise team. But, they have finally given me a second chance ( really a lot of chances, but I say, second chance because my heart is molding for God and I am getting to a place of intimately knowing Him)  in the month of November to show that I can be a team and be more about God and less about me.

But any who……………………

What this post is really about, is what happen at church -Sunday, November 09, 2014 at 9:00am. The worship team was rehearsing one last time before church begun- and all of the sudden they felt the Spirit of God just fall right on stage. And I never seen anything take place like it did that day. The spirit took control and turned part of that rehearsal into glorifying Him. It almost felt as if we were already starting church service. 🙂

My worship leader and my pastor just fell down to their knees and started to worship God...In Spirit and In Truth…. Tears fell into submission for God...”Letting the enemy know that everything you tried to throw at me, God still was in control…. And we give God praise regardless of the fiery darts that we endured this week”.

I wish you were there to see it, it was beautiful and I think not only our church but all churches should have that type of true worship whether during church service or even better during Rehearsal. The Spirit of God was ministering to their spirits from 9am to 9:30am until church began at 10am. I hope that when I am back on the stage that I am able to feel what they felt.. When I seen what God has done …. I just said, to my spirit that I have TWO GREAT LEADERS- they showed me what real worship is: it is not about how great you sound..But about that one on one personal worship with the HOLY SPIRIT. Worship is about God not about putting on a show.

If you are in Jacksonville Florida…Come by and visit this awesome church- that takes God as the center of everything they do and that keeps it realer then ever- Jacksonville Worship Center.

God Heard My Cry…He really did!

Path unto my light

Two days ago, I questioned God about my life? When my mother had an abortion, why wasn’t I the chosen one to die? I decided to walk outside of my apartment and sit at the top of the stairs and read my bible and talk to God. I said to God, that the way that I am feeling right now, Psychiatrist would say, I am having a bi-polar episode, but I just can’t accept that anymore……….Instead I told God that even though I am not sure why, I act the way I do…I just want it to stop and I want to get better. I told God that I don’t care why I act or feel this way, I just want to be better person. So, open up my bible and begin to read Psalms 40 and 42. and in those two chapters, some verses stood out to me:

Psalms 40:1- I Waited patiently for the Lord: and He inclined unto me, and heard my cry.
Psalms 40:2- He brought me up also out of an horrible pit, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock and established my going
Psalms 40:3- He hath put a new song in my mouth, even praise unto our God: many shall see it, and fear, and shall trust in the Lord

Psalms 42:8-Yet the Lord will command his loving kindness in the daytime, and in the night his song shall be with me and my prayer unto the God of my life
Psalms 42:9- I will say unto God my rock. Why hast thou forgotten me? why go I mourning because of the oppression of the enemy
Psalms 42:10-As with a sword in my bones, mine enemies reproach me;while they say daily unto me, Where is thy God.

I hope and pray this helps someone as well, to maybe find a path to established thier goings. We all need guidance- I say, start with God.

Love you all!!! And God bless

The life of a Worship Singer

The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way.
The meek will he guide in judgment: and the meek will he teach his way.

When I am singing or  listening to worship music, I vision myself on stage-When I close  my eyes  I see this woman on stage (which is me, of course!) and her eyes are closed with the microphone in her hands and the stage is dark, but the light is shining  on her,center stage!  (YES, I know I am talking in 3rd person, lol ).

While I am in the world, I am the LIGHT of this world

WHAT THAT INTERPRETS:

When I do get to that stage in  life- I will be meek and humble before God.  And that light is defining that, I am the light and I am going to shine like a lamp stand in this world until God is ready for me to come home.  I can ‘t wait until my imaginations turn into reality… That will be a blessing to see. : ).

I pray that along this journey of trial and tribulation that I become what God wants me to be. I want to be transformed to His perfections. What ever I desire, I know God desires even better then what I want and need. One day……..One Sweet Day, God is going to open up a door that will be such an AMAZING BLESSING to the point of my cup overflowing. It’s coming…Just wait…….

 

Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.
Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.

I want to touch peoples lives with what I DO

My time with God singing!!!! ENJOY!!!!

What you are about to watch is a very intimate and special time with My Savior-Jesus Christ.  No one was at home but me and it felt good just letting loose and letting God have the glory without any interruptions. His presence is HEAVEN TO ME

God made a way

Just  a little update from the last post I made about my rent being paid. God made a way for me to pay my rent and. I just trusted and had faith in God that I could get through it and get my rent paid. I was late but I have a roof over my head. But I do have some very interesting news. I have found a way to make extra money and it has caused me to quit my job and go full time as an entrepreneur. From my past  post on being an Entrepreneur has came true!!!! It is hard work but the outcome is TREMENDOUSLY GREAT!!!!. I will talk about it in my next post.

Just SHARING my THOUGHTS!!!

Well, I have not been on here lately and I miss writing my thoughts- Well, I am back today and I have some great news to tell you… For the first time in my life,  I will be moving into my own place!!!! I am excited about this new opportunity that awaits me on the 29th of this month. The funny thing about this year of 2014 is that I was not expecting to move out until 2015.  I pray everything works fine “financially” and I really pray that this is in God’s plan. I don’t know what to expect, but I do feel relieved that I am going to be able to take control of what I do and how I do things in our house….. Our House (meaning-husband and I). And other good news is, I will be auditioning this month for AMTC-Actors, Models, and Talent for Christ. So, pray for me on that. I have dropped some weight too. But, I will talk about that later-on my next post. 

God Bless, and have a bless day.